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Oct. 2nd, 2009 | 10:45 pm
During the last week i have had a few apocalypses. no, not 'end of the world' s lol apocalypse means revelation.
1. i will be going back to university next year
2. i am so so so wanting a job and really have my fingers crossed for specsavers xxxx crosscrosscrossssss
and my other revelations have been (obviously) about james
at first, i found out a few things i really really didnt like (that he hadnt told me, and obviously wouldnt) so i had that whole heart pounding shaking vomit feeling for the night
so i talked to sean
expecting the usual - ''well darlin', james can be a douche sometimes, but at the end of the day, he loves you and you gotta accept that he can be a bit silly'' like he normally says. but this time it was more....sinister. well, not as much sinister as honest.
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well i'm just a bit dramatic...
May. 28th, 2009 | 04:08 pm
mood: ![better =]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/mely/lemonfaces/smilec.gif)
better =]
But hey, lets just push all this aside and enjoy life, yes yes?
:D
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CAN. OF. WORMS.
May. 27th, 2009 | 12:17 pm
location: Central Library
mood: 
me, just me, and nothing more.
What a big ol' can o' worms that turned out to be.
May I have the lid to my worms back please?
=[
The overall point I wanted to make is that I can't be 100% comfortable and trusting in this relationship when he's lied, and betrayed my trust (on a few occasions) before. And never EVER come clean about them until I found out.
Example #1:
After talking to Christie before Christmas (lal) I find that there is sexual history between his current girlfriend and James. Christie sort of confides a few things in me that I'm to be honest pretty shocked about, so I assume James slept with her a long long time ago.
I ask him about it and he confirms this - 'Yes I did, but it was absolutely aaaages ago' (quoted Jan 2009)
I then find out that after he'd met me in the club and got my number, we'd been out, kissed, slept with each other and were 'seeing' each other - it is at this point that he goes back to university and ends up in bed with another girl. In October. Thats barely even 2 months ago.
Thanks alot James, how do you think that makes me feel? Obviously not good enough. Never good enough. Not enough for you to think that you liked me and perhaps shouldn't do this to me. But see, that's not how James works. He doesn't think about anyone but himself, until afterwards. And yes he can regret it, but it's far, far too late by then. Hurt and betrayed. And, quite frankly, disgusted. That has to be where he got that manky disease from.
I actually resent him for it. As a human being, he doesn't score that high at all. He's absolutely disgusting.
Example #2:
Deleting messages on my phone, I accidentally delete a really sweet (and recent) message that I would have liked to keep. Because I'm sentimental like that, I actually care. Anyway, as its recent, I figure I'll just resend it from James' sent items. Go into sent items box, last few messages are to a girl I've not heard of, only snippets here and there. She appears to be moaning about an ex. James says she must miss sex. She says yes, but the guy wasn't all that good at it. James says 'Ah, I reckon I'd be better ...shame I can't give you a demonstration...?'
If thats not some form of cheating, I don't know what is. Bye bye sweet and 'meaningful' message. Its all bollocks. At the time he was doing the whole 'You're the only girl for me, I want you and only you...' It makes me want to scream BOLLOCKS! ABSOLUTE FUCKING BULLSHIT, YOU COMPLETE LYING CUNT.
Oh, and by the way, it was a 'drunken mistake'. That makes it all better :). yh.
I'm sick of these examples now. Actually physically sick. It makes me shake and want to cry.
I want to cry because all I've ever done for James is make the effort to be as nice as possible, to always look nice, I've spent hundreds of pounds on him personally, travelling down to Canterbury to see him, I constantly scratch his back for him, when all he does is sleep, I put up with people I morbidly dislike to be with him, I cancelled so many days off work and got in trouble for it just to see him. I constantly make this pointless effort to make myself one of these slim, pretty people that he can't get enough of. And I can't. He's confirmed that I'll never be able to do it. I'm everso slightly sad. But is he really worth changing myself for? Mike loved me for who I was, never ever cared what I looked like, would look amazed if ever I dressed up nice, treated me like I should be treated. And he never once looked at another girl. I know that for a fact - its not in his nature. He is a loyal, faithful boyfriend. Was I wrong in splitting up with him? He's the only one whose ever treated me the way I dream about, and wish for every waking second. But thats past now. For this current boyfriend, I'm obviously not enough.
I'm sorry.
I'll never be supermodel thin, I'll always have short legs and a big bottom. I'll always have slightly sticky outy teeth, and freckles. I'll always be a little bit loud when I laugh, and I'll always have a need to be liked.My hair won't grow quick enough for it to be long like he so wants. I'll never be tanned because I can't afford to go away, and I'm scared of sunbeds. My toes will never look perfect in sandals, likewise I'll never be attractive in a bikini. I'll always cry at soppy films, but keep my feelings bottled up inside so no one can hurt me like you do. I'll never have any style but my own style. I'll never be anything but what I am now. And as much as he will say its enough-until he's blue in the face-how can I honestly believe that when he's initiating sex with other,m more prettier girls?
How can I compare to the people he's slept with? I'll never be like that, I'm sorry, I don't put it about, I won't make a point of trying to get every male within 3miles to bed me. To me sex is something you do with someone you love. James doesn't agree. I can't handle that. It's digusting. Call me a prude if you will.
I'm withering away in this relationship.
I know just how Juliet feels in Lost.
Perhaps I should just fall down a magnetically charged mineshaft too.
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The stars are falling again
May. 26th, 2009 | 11:22 am
This entry hereby begins with a big fat HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM........
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
I'm none too pleased at the moment.
I have a boyfriend related issue
A big one.
Honestly wondering: will a relationship last if you can't trust your other half?
HMMMM...
There it is again
Decide for yourselves:
Last thing thats said to me is 'I'm getting up at 9/ half 9ish tomoroow, I'll give you a call then'.
11am this morning, no word. I ring him. He answers phone sounding very shocked, with an expecting 'Hello?' rather than a 'Herrroooooo :]' and he didn;t mention anything as to what he's doing, I explain I was waking him up, he's all I was already up, and I'm all oh.
Stupid me for not asking what he was doing. Butafter the 'are you alright?' question it goes 'yeah yeah, I'm fine honestly...*PAUSE* nah, nah honestly I'm fine'.
If he has a girl there I'd like to know is all.
its the lies, can't do the lies.
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A little more and I'll fall off the planet entirely...
May. 22nd, 2009 | 12:28 pm
location: Bibliotheque
mood: 
cold
My nose is running uncontrollably due to the sub-zero temperatures of Central library. Its freezing.
I walked to bexleyheath in just a boob tube and linen trousers; I'm actually having to go outside to stay warm.
BRRRRRRz
I'm going home soon, hurrah, I'm going straight back to bed =]
And then waking up in the late afternoon to eagerly anticipate Jameses arrival :D
Plus I finished the Fellowship of the Ring and have started the Two Towers, so thats on the agend too.
Plus, must shave legs :)
I was bored, I hacked Nicky's facebook.
James tried to hack my hotmail account. It wiped it.
Never mind, I use a new one now anyway. Silly fishie.
Right, I'm going to return my book and then have a ciggy and then go home. And sleep. Hooray!
Bisous xxx
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The Cake is a LIE
May. 19th, 2009 | 04:01 pm
location: CL Librarieee
mood: 
nerdy
I'm making a note here:
HUGE SUCCESS
Its hard to overstate my satisfaction :)
Aperture Science -
We do what we must because we can
For the good of all of us...
...Except the ones who are dead
But there's no sense crying over every mistake, you just keep on trying til you run out of cake
And the science gets done, and you make a neat gun for the people who are
Still Alive
:D
I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
Even though you broke my heart
and killed me
and tore me to pieces
and threw every piece into a fire
as they burned, it hurt because
I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a beautiful line
And we're out of beta
Go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
Maybe you'll find someone else to help you...
Maybe Black Mesa?
THAT WAS A JOKE. HAHA. FAT CHANCE.
Anyway, this cake is great
It's so delicious and moist
Look at me still talking
When there's Science to do!
I've experiments to run
There's research to be done on the people who are
Still Alive
And believe me, I am
Still Alive
I'm doing Science and I'm
Still Alive
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm
Still Alive
While you're dying I'll be
Still Alive
And when you're dead I will be
STILL ALIVE
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oh yes
HELLOOOOOO
May. 17th, 2009 | 11:06 am
location: Jason's Comp at the 2-seater
mood: 
awake
music: Civilization on the X-Box
Eurovision? Didn't watch it. The Hobbit? Didn't finish it. Britain's Got Talent? Watched most of it.
I don't know where this is going ^_^
MINS IN BINS
I'm having a party, a party! Meet at my gaff, come dressed as a country, not Japan! See you there! xxx
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Oranges and Lemons
May. 15th, 2009 | 03:45 pm
location: Central Library...beginning to see a trend here? :p
mood: 
missing james =[
music: some pikey just said 'i love you man'
There's a young couple outside the window and she has her arms thrown round his neck and they're kiss kiss kissing away like its going out of fashion. I feel the green-eyed monster bashing away at my insides, but I have to keep him away, or I'll die. Stupid couples. Get to spend all their time together. Stupid library. Having see-through windows and stuff.
OK, bitterness ebbing away now. I'm about three or four (maybe five, it's hard to tell) chapters into The Hobbit now, only dozed off twice. Am also trying to be discreet about stuffing oversized mini cheddars into my mouth, I'm not doing too well.
I miss James already. Thanks to him, I managed to ponce an extra 45 minutes on the library computer, which is where I am now, and where I shall remain until 5pm. Then I shall read for another half hour/20mins, then I shall embark on my journey home.
We had a wonderful night last night, despite a few angry ramblings which I got over once I'd painted my toes Cerulean Blue and pedalled the air in my knickers for a bit. He came round about half ten and I met him at the bottom of the road in my PJ shorts and Jamie's school jumper (i know, way to reel him in Jo... ¬_¬) and we had a cigarette and then watched CSI. Not before I asked him loadses of questions about me, just to see if he could answer them. It came about from me remembering a time in Canterbury when we walked past this shop that had an amazing painting in it, and I offhandedly said 'Ohh, thats lovely' and James sort of cocked his head and went '...You like pictures and stuff like that don't you..." and my heart sort of pole-vaulted around because I was all 'OMG this is the first time he's ever asked a question to find out stuff about me and my thoughts - he wants to know!' but after a while it came out that he was only asking to re-assure himself because he'd bought me a canvas picture for Valentine's Day (which, by the way, i luuuuuurve and its awesome awesome awesome).
So anyway, yeah, I asked a series of questions including like my favourite colour, what I spend most my money on blah blah blah, and surprisingly and unbeknowingly to me, he got all of them right. A few hesitations, but come on, he knows this stuff! So then he asked me a few and I got one right. And that was by fluke.
My conclusion? I talk about myself far too much. =]
But still, we hugged aaaaalllllllllll night and oh he's so so so lovely to sleep with because he's all warm and manly and yum and then I needed a poo so I had a poo and then James needed a poo so he had one while I washed my face and the dogs watched him, wagging their tails. Bunch of queers.
LOL James just text me (oh yeah, the reason I am sad and missing him is because he's on his way back to Canterberry now, kinda forgot to mention that bit) and he told me he's leaving at half one....
Only just hit the A2. =P
Typical James =]
iiiiiiiiiiiiiii mmmmiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssssss hhhhiiiiiimmmmmmmmmmmmm =[
I'm also very hungry. Alls I had today was a bag of bbq crispies. Oh and a few not-so-sneaky large cheddars XD
I must stop eating. Its nearly summer and I want that confidence to run round nekkid. Hurrah for summer!
Though its freezing out...
I are ramble.
No word from the lingerie store *cough* classy Ann Summers *cough* but I told mum about it and she's pretty supportive.
End of my ramblings. Musings, if you will.
Come back, boyfriend =[ xxx
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grrr
May. 14th, 2009 | 08:50 pm
location: Home (thank god)
mood: 
fucked off
And how nice is this - as soon as Lost had finished, James jumps right out of bed and says "Right, what are you doing now - I gotta go call Ben and discuss Lost!"
...
Oh, ok James, you do that, because, y'know, I obviously don't have a clue about whats going on in the plot, I mean I've only seen every episode. And I did just spend the last hour and twenty minutes hugging you and watching it with you. And I wouldn't like to chat about the shocking revelations or the plotline, nooo not at all. But no thats fine, leave me right here, where I am, and go and ring Ben who's a thousand miles away, and obviously understands much more than me.
Then send me home to tidy up for you.
On the bus.
Thanks.
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Lost in Sidcup
May. 14th, 2009 | 03:44 pm
location: Sidcup Library
mood: 
bouncy bouncy
Seriously, the things I see going on in these libraries; the other day I was innocently (and quietly) reading, and then this weird looking woman (about 50 with straggly grey/blonde hair and a german hiking coat on) plonked herself down opposite me and I noticed she was reading Harry Potter, and this made me smile because in a library you can be who you want to be. Which is nice. But anyway. So its all quiet and I'm reading Oscar Wilde and then there's this noise, like when you slowly peel open an envelope, and its coming from in front of me. So I look up, and it abruptyl stops and I see the weird german lady with one hand in the back of the book, peeling off the security tag! And giving me the biggest evils EVER! So I hastily look back at my book and ignore it, until she gets up, and out of my peripheral vision I see her leave the library, STILL with Harry Potter in hand, WITHOUT checking him out!
Not that I blame her, I personally wouldn't check out Harry Potter. Ron Weasley? Now thats a different story...
And there was the time this really glamorous old lady (complete with golden embroidered shoulder padded jacket and big clip on earrings) ran into an old friend who she hadn't seen in ages and they were gushing over each other, complimenting their hair and how young they each look (lies, all lies) and then all of a sudden, the old friend looks down at the shoulder of her mink suede jacket and notices a stain. A crimson stain. Crimson to match the colour of old Glamourpuss's lipstick stain. And what does she do? She starts ranting and raving right there, slap bang in the middle of the library about how it cost her half her pension, and she shouldn't be so careless. All the while old Glamourpuss and I are staring, open-mouthed in disbelief. Along with the rest of the library go-ers. Absolute shenanigans.
On the plus side, I found a full-time vacancy for this amazing new lingerie store (that also sells sex toys; plus plus plus :P) and I'm really quite excited about it. I hope the lady gets back to me. If not, I'm aware Pizza Hut are still hiring... ¬_¬
There's this weird looking guy that works in this library who keeps coming over and standing behind me, I swear he's reading what I'm typing. And also, a message flashed up from the front desk on my screen saying 'I am watching you...'
No shit sherlock, I can feel your breath on my neck!
I wish LiveJournal had a doodle pad. Or maybe I just need a graphics tablet. Yeah, I'll go with that. Jebus, if you're listening, I could sure use a graphics tablet right now....
Anytime soon...
I got allllllll day...
OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!O
LOST SEASON FINALE!!!
Ok, so it doesn't actually air in this country until Sunday, but I happen to be liasing with that amazing boyfriend of mine who downloads it
Well. This is less fun now. I need to fart. NOT IN A LIBRARY!
Goodbibe xxxxxx
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So, things have changed
May. 13th, 2009 | 01:41 pm
location: Central Library
mood: 
hopeful
music: *click* *click* *click* of the keyboard
Yes, me and James are on good terms again. Very good terms. I don't think it's quite fully gone away; the fact that he hurt me, but it's out of sight; out of mind, if you will.
I did however dare to jeopardise this good feeling yesterday, by finally spilling my feelings on being uncomfortable at his house. Ok, its not the house, just when his family are there. I realise I've not explained this in much detail here, but its basically I'm not used to being around people of that certain manner and I'm just scared of putting a toe out of line and I constantly feel like James is doing wrong by being with me.
I definitly got the point across and he took it surprisingly well. In fact, I think I caught a touch of empathy from him (!) =]
Bless ^_^
But, as it turned into a row and we had a row that afternoon, and a row the previous morning (which he pointed out that the turnaround rate was pretty damn good) I have finally made a revelation, which is pleasing to me:
If have got through this at our age, and at this stage in the relationship, thenreally, we're set, and we can get through anything. Except for this sodding sarah girl, who infuriates me to the max. why would someone like James even have social contact with someone like that? grrr.So yeah, bring on the troubles of married life! I owe it to myself and James to show I can be cool, and good, and nice, and civil. Unless there is a need for me to be uncivil. Ahem.
On another note, I read 'The Happy Prince' and 'The Nightingale and the Rose' by Oscar Wilde this morning IN a public library might I add, and could not help but sob my heart out, completely ruining my make up.
Read them.
Anyhow, I'm out. Library time running out. Must talk in short sentences. Deleting pronouns. Need job. Flanders is gay.
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I wish...
May. 4th, 2009 | 03:27 am
location: the dark
mood: melancholy
Oh dear. Such a shame.
I don't even know what to type. Its about half three in the morning. I haven't spoken to James. I don't really want to.
Things could have turned out different. But all along I knew I was right. Every doubt, every worry, every twinge of my tummy.
I was so right.
But I wish I was wrong.
I really wish he wouldn't have led me on to this point. If its so hard, why play with my feelings.
I wish it was just me.
I wish I was your favourite girl.
I wish you thought I was the reason you were in the world.
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.
I wish you couldn't figure me out; that you'd always want to know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand, when I was upset
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly, cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see
Basically
I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three
I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.
I'm sick of wishing my life away...
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chase me chase me kiss me kiss me
Mar. 16th, 2009 | 12:04 am
location: Jameses Room in Caaaanterbry
mood: chipper
music: probably radiohead, they're obsessed,
long time no speak little livejournal
one of two reasons as to why i'm doing this:
i did a memories note on facebook which made me want to go back and read all of this because it dates back for a gooooood few years, granted most of it is bollocks, but its my bollocks, y'know?
the last reason being i am so bored stuck out here in the sticks with no phone no nothing while the boyfriend has been ordered to tidy the house and if he doesnt they will surely put a stick up his bum and use him to sweep the kitchen
i want to learn a foreign language
james is a queer
:O
well i've had a pretty top class weekend doing some amazing stuff, including cups of tea in early morning baths with pink water and shopping for salapettes and watching tom cruise and thinking about hitler and what the fudge stan and stealing aaron's bed and 24 cartwheels and driving off without you and fannying around and losing the football and rude ice cream men and if you were a corpse and going commando and ice cream for breakfast and daisy chains and getting catted and twatted and stealing aaron's bed and farting in venue and crepes and really sunny sun and chase me chase me kiss me kiss me and dun dun DOOOOOOOO and bratty little devil girls who can't ride bikes and scatch fail and frisbee fail and gay kissing and hangovers and puke and new friends and silent discos and takeaways and spoons and this cup of tea has half a tonne of sugar in it and stinging nettles and random attacks and if this were a one night stand i'd be out like a shot and max's greatest day and your a hero homer j and jackie p who rapes who first and isn't that your sister GINGER.
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:]
Mar. 12th, 2008 | 08:42 pm
mood: 
lonely
i just read this and i never take notice of these but this one's almost perfect :)
When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]
When she stare's at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]
When she start's cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]
When she ignore's you
[ Give her your attention ]
When she pull's away
[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]
When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared
[ Protect her ]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steal's your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she look's at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]
When she say's that she like's you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab's at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bump's into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tell's you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]
When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]
When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]
When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]
When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]
- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
- Tease her and let her tease you back.
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"
awwww :]]]]]]]]
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silly silly silly
Aug. 10th, 2007 | 04:19 pm
mood: 
IM INNOCENT I TELLS YA
except george the man slag made it awkward as he was a bit WOAH on me
matt got him though
what else can you say when someone says 'OH MY GOD your the girl i fancy the pants off of'
and then tells you that you love him more than your boyfriend
THATR BOY NEEDS SOME MORALS
and a good hard slap
but im sure he'll settle for a punch in the face from matt :)
YEAH MAN
i was le hammered
so what else is new
hollie slept with jimmy last night
and i got every gory detail THANKS
then she hijacked my house
me and rozza bonded over tunes
so did me and pod
party tomorrow
and i am now a ginge
its amazing what summer sun does to you =]
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Aug. 8th, 2007 | 10:38 pm
mood: 
hmmm WHATS GOING ON!!
i hate how mums have the ability to completely twist your frame of mind
i hate hate HATE it
but whatever she wanted to achieve i think shes done it
sure its only temporary
but its not nice :(
i dont want to think bad thoughts
i know i have trust
i do
dont i?
AAAIIEEEEEEEEEE i dont like this GET OUT OF MY HEAD
lets think of something good
i saw jane and her boys today
they had just come from tennis
JACK FORBIDS ME TO PLAY
bitch.
=]
as a matter of fact i couldnt anyway
went to get proper antibiotics today
TAINT LOOKING GOOD is what the fat black nurse said :(
why do i feel hatred?
ha!
but in a way i feel like i knew it was coming
oh dear
is this the end of the end??
way hay nice to see i still gotthe old drama queen in me ;]]]]
loves xxxxxx
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Aug. 8th, 2007 | 11:11 am
mood: content :D
music: FOB - Thnks Fr Th Mmrs
and it reminds me of the time i was at jacks dads and the cereal was yuck and i threw a strop and then fell asleep in it :D
mannn im cool hehe
i think they taste janky because i got straight out of bed this morning and threw up
its was nearly like projectile vomit
yet now im fine
so anyway, yesterday turned out to be actually pretty awesome!
as you already know i went shopping with lewmoo which was cool then i went home and made the most funky dinner known to my name [actually ive done better but this one was healthy too!]
i did three bits of toast and put them in a cool pattern on the plate
then i cut up some ham and put it on top
then i covered that in spinach leaves
and then plopped [haha plopped] some plum tomatoes in juice on top
then loooooooads of black pepper
et VOILA!
yum
shame it all made a return trip this morning :S
and DURING this dinner i decided to check my phone and i had a message and i always get a jumpy feeling incase its jack but i know it isnt cos hes abroad and it costs loads and he said hed text me 'in the week' and i dont think tuesday [the SECOND day of him being away] counts as 'in the week' so anyway i open my inbox and GUESS WHAT IT SAYS yes you guessed it 'Anal Jack' aaahahahaa bless him and then that made me nearly DIE in my dinner and i was all jumpy aroundy
but yeah
i calmed
and then during my dinner i got a phone call from The HollieWarren and she was all what are you doing tonight i am coming to pick you up we go cinema yes?
notice how i had no choice but to say yes ok BITCH haha
so then i died jasons hair black after much pestering from him [looks mongish haha EMOOOoooo]
then hollie picks me up and the whoooooole way there she talks about how much prettier she is that jimmys new girlfriend and so i make her feel better which REALLY isnt what she needs but who cares if i want to get out of this car alive she went up the curb FIVE TIMES! jesuschrist!
anyway yeah we get there at like half eight and agree to see SIMPSONS at half nine and so we got all this time and she suddnely sees this guy she knows and fancies from club sushi you know the really tall ugly ginger one with HENCH muscles and peircings? yuck so yeah she ABANDONS me for him so i go over to the ice cream counter where i see DAVE TOVEY my littlest man friend and hes soooo lovely when i went over there he was all 'heyyyy jo! how are you hows life without jack?' and i nearly got all choked up because this was the first time of the night that someone had asked how I was-ME! how JO was feeling!! [yes its a dig at hollie] but yeah then he gave me free BEN AND JERRYS ice cream and then he was like im on break you wanna go shoot some pool and i was all DO I EVER!?!?! so we went to the sports bar and guess what i won but it was by fluke haha we are both shit
then it hit me that id ditched hollie for her ex
then it hit me that she'd ditched me for a ginger sailor
so we met up and watched simpsons OMG IT IS SOOOO WORTH IT i cried SO much !!!!! reaaallly funny i gotta take my brother
LEDGE
so yes then on the way home i notcied that the bottom of my road is suddenly ROAD SIGN CITY poor jakc he is missing out but then HOLLIE goes 'oh jo get out oand grab me that one' and i thought she meant give it to jjack cos hes the one that does roadsigns yknow and she was like 'ill put it in my room! how cool!' and i was like NAH because only three hours befire she'd gone to me OI dont steal my troll idea and so this time i was like OI YOU CANT HAVE ROADSIGNS JACK DOES THAT GGET OUT!!
so she pushed me out the car and spat on my corpse before speeding away into the night with the boot flapping wide open
haha ok so i made that up
then i told my mom about the WHOLE night and then had a yoghurt which was yeuch and then went to bed giggling
havent done THAT since i last slept in jacks bed
YAY FOR HIM!
and tonight i am going dancing and then b-b-b-b-BOWLING! YAY! ps no work today
ps i love stuff
:D